Anniversary

Today, November 11th, marks nineteen years since I first posted a blog on this site. Yes, that means this is my nineteenth blog anniversary. I honestly can’t wrap my head around the very concept of it being nineteen years. Obviously it hasn’t been consecutive as we are just now coming out of the blog-wilderness years, yet how the hell has it been nineteen fucking years.

My very first post was about the ending of my “once in a lifetime” long-term relationship. How a new chapter was about to open and how I could not imagine the next chapter. As of this momentous occasion here has been… four other “one in a life time” relationships since then. That’s some perspective. Yet it took all those once in a life times to fail to gain the experience of knowing what I have now is right, healthy, not sabotaged by me, and how it just works correctly. So damn, It took me nineteen years to actually live that. 

Although many, many lives have been lived by me since 2007, I honestly think I have not changed. well, cholesterol is a thing, and my nerve cells have been demyelinating as my immune system thinks my own body is an invader causing my nerves to be attacked, making huge holes in my brain, and spinal cord. I’m not myelin, that kinda sucks. But hey, after all this time, bodies are gonna do weird things. How self-absorbed to have your own immune system to eat itself. I can bench a lot more now at the gym then ever before. So Suck it, MS. 

I move forward from today as I have for the last millennia with determination and faith in my self. I also have faith your choice to keep reading this crazy rambling of a madman. I am a dinosaur, I know this. But, like a hot one. With pointy teeth. Rawr!